Seems this August will be a litle bit hard to keep rolling on the Blog...
Bufff...
i must to make a BackUp to this computer... it's horrible...
Today's morning was grey & rainning... i love it!
But now... at the afternoon... it's hot again... this crazy weather...
-.-U
This last days i was loong thinking in my relationship with my boy, he've a lot of "question" and "internal problems"...
i Hate this situation, 'cause make me feel alone... he's distant with me... don't wanna talk so much... sometimes i think he preffer to discuss with me... and i hate it...
I think about broke the realtion ship... but i can't... it's horrible... i'm not the problem, i think there is no real problem in our realitonship... the only "problem" it's that he can't understand his situation...
I wanna mean, he want to be with me, he feel that need me, but he don't wanna recognice it... He only can think in the short time we're together... just about 3 months...
I know it's not so much time... but i can't understand why he can accept his feelings... i wanna mean, that if he really "love" me, why can't he still this "life-rithym"; to me it's usual go in this kind of "full-speed" rithym... but not for he...i know, it's hard to acomodate it... but it's not impossible... if you don't "block" you, of course...
And i feel he's Blocking himself...
You know what i mean... we must to move at the same time, if we want to make it "rule"...
He always said, that he don't wanna loose me... and don't wanna broke the relationship, but he can't see the terrible pressure he's making me feel... -.-U
I don't know what to do... or said...
I'm sure, if he knows that i put all this things in this opened Blog, he'll kill me... i wish i've got a "guestbook" to know the opinion of the visitors that read this blog... but of course, it's impossible...
After all, i will put my E-mail, so, everyone's invided to mail me, and tell me his opinion, ok?
pai_sama@yahoo.com
It's not a gorgeous e-mail account... but it's mine... ^^U
Ok... it's all for today...
Oh! another thing, i got Gackt Moon Album... gorgeous one!!!
i make a Remiz with the Mizérable Mini Album... *^^*
People who know Gackt will enjoy it...
XDDDDD
ok... see you soon...